what happens happens

wow
it’s been such a long time. so many things going on that i can’t even begin to write about them. i’ve been feeling a lot of stress lately. i’m as broke as a toy truck the day after christmas and there always seems to be something broken or needing mending that i am fortunate just to keep up with them.

my washer’s lid switch broke. i replaced that myself with a $20 dollar part. after a lot of research that is.

i went out one morning to go to work and my tire was flat. it took a few days but was able to get the tire off and patched and i put it back on myself. that was all free.
i then took my car in last week so the tires could get balanced and found out i needed new tires. they were on sale.

i went away for the weekend in august and when i came back i found that my fridge wasn’t working. luckily it was something that only cost around $100 instead of $300

yesterday i saw that my headlight was out and i plan on replacing that myself or maybe convinced the boyfriend to do it.

brad got laid off a couple of weeks ago.

my company changed insurance and have gone with a high deductible hsa insurance. as of right now it’s not so bad of a choice for me.

and last week all of a sudden my cat’s eyed stayed dilated and now she is blind and the vet doesn’t know why. but while at the vet they ran a complete bloodwork test and i found out that c.c. is anemic. great. the fastest cure is a drug called epogen. it’s suppose to quickly bring animals back from the brink of anemia. however, once the shots are started they are to be given forever. the drug is expensive and it would be a monthly. over the last few days i have been going through a lot of emotions about c.c. and yesterday when i went to the vet to pick up the forever anemia drug i broke down and asked the vet “is this worth it?” and the end result is no. it’s not worth it. c.c. is dying from kidney failure and there is nothing i can do about it. curing the anemia isn’t going to stop her from having kidney failure. so instead of leaving with the epogen i left with an iron supplement. and i also left with a peace that i haven’t felt before about c.c. no more fighting a losing battle. i am going to make her as comfortable and as hydrated as i can. as long as she isn’t suffering then what happens happens. right now she gets up and drinks and walks around but since she can’t see she mainly lays in her chair. she is responsive to people but just tired.


it all makes me tired just writing about it.