yesterday started my 9th year at my place of employment. i have never stayed at a place longer than 4 years. what makes this job so different? i don't quite know. there are several reasons. i enjoy my job...most of the time. i pay bills for a living so it takes an organization that i can get into. it's problem solving, which i also enjoy. and my boss is always asking me to do something that really isn't my job but i don't always mind. when i first started there it was 5 minutes from my house. now it's 15 minutes away. i enjoy the people i work with and for. and the best reason of all is that i met brad there. 5 years ago we think. however, we didn't get togther until a little over 3 years ago. and i get to see him everyday.
i have never hidden the fact that i have an un-conventional belief system, but with that said my co-workers still can't get over some off the things i say. for the last couple of days we have been dealing with the 100's of boxes containing documents, financials and payables. when need to move the boxes to storage and shred what can be shreded. it can be an overwhelming task when you see the ocean of skids containing all this info. so i was getting ready to walk out the door with several of these woman when someone made a smart assed comment that i didn't catch and
"R" said "tracey can get a dorm room too".
"what are you talking about?' i said.
R reply's " "N" said that we were going to hell and we can all share dorm rooms"
me-"i'm not going to hell, i don't believe in it"
shocked silence
N says "what? well you might find out that you are wrong"
me-"and you might find out that your wrong"
i turn to leave and go find paper or something, and they apparently keep on talking about it. cause when we walk out together my boss (who wasn't around during the conversation) ask me what i said. i repeated again-"i can't go someplace that i don't believe in". and i changed the subject. it's nobody's business what i believe in and you can judge me all you want behind my back, but if you don't what me to become the bitch that i can be it's best not to question me on religion to my face. luckily everyone stopped talking about it.
as we all know i don't believe in the christian idea of hell or heaven. so i sometimes find it hard that others can't seem to let it go.
what makes you think YOU are right? how can you be an expert on the hereafter? did you go there and come back? oh i see god told you in a book and that makes it so. come on. the different sects of christians can't even agree on the bible itself. some preach only the old testament some the new. all this means is that you have a really big ego. i don't believe in hell or heaven because i have NO and i repeat NO idea what's going to happen to us after we die. no one does.
maybe next time when someone brings up me not believing in hell, i will tell them it's because i believe in reincarnation. that should be fun.
4 years ago
