i went camping last weekend with our girl scout troop. it was a nice camp with cool stuff to do and we had great weather. and all in all the girls were great. now granted they are 5th graders and that comes with it's own set of issues but were well behaved over all. we did archery (which i found out that i loved) i could have done that all day. then we went onto tree climbing. now this isn't tree climbing like you would think. they don't show you how to climb trees, which i might have been able to do. oh no. they have rope hanging off tree limbs with many configurations of knots and you have to pull yourself up. the girls were like monkey. me as their leader was a dead weight. there wasn't a moment where i got off the ground. and the harness and ropes were painful. and it's not easy pulling 180 lbs with no upper body strength. so i conceded to the tree and got off. but i tried. i think i'll stick with the bow and arrows. now also at this camp there is a swinging bridge. and the only way to get to the camp without a 5 mile hike on the road was over the swinging bridge. once going and once coming back. i hated the swinging bridge. i've never like swinging bridges. too much creaking and swaying and too much of a drop. i can't cross it with other people. i'm close to a break down when i cross it. all i can do is focus on the other side and pray that i don't freeze up. my mantra was "one foot at a time". i told the leader that if i came back to that camp that i would NEVER cross that bridge again.


comments about the corporate world
sometimes "control freaks" really really get on my fucking nerves. always right, everybody else is wrong, and heaven forbid that they would let you come up with anything on your own or do anything on your own because you know that there will be a comment about it not being right. and then on top of it all they wonder aloud in a victimized voice to other people why they have to deal with everything. i would like to say in a very loud voice " BECAUSE IT'S YOU OWN FAULT". if you weren't so consumed in having your way and not trusting that someone else may be more efficient than you or have a different way of looking at things you wouldn't have to do everything. but since you don't most people will let you do it yourself to make sure it's done to your satisfaction.
and what i really hate is when they try to control what i do or what i have been doing for several years and they are not my manager. now i will say that when it comes to what i do every single freaking day for 7 freaking years that yeah i can be a little controlling but you know what, it's ran smoothly for that many years and i don't like other people who have no idea about what i do telling me what i should do.
these are also the people with no sense of humor.
right now they can just "BITE ME"

alrighty...i'm done venting.

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